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Monday, September 30, 2013

Restore unto me

O Lord, if You are really the God who is there,
help me to find a place in your story.
  
Come, I pray, for the out-pouring of Your Holy Spirit.
Come, I pray, and guide me in your story.
 Come, I pray, tarry not.
 
You have called me to be Your child
and to be a physician in Jerusalem,
therefore continue, I shall, to serve You
and fulfill Your Greatest Commission,
as a physician of body and soul.
 
Help me to remember the first love that I have forsaken.
Help me to remember the height from which I have fallen.
Give me a heart of repentance.
  

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Restore to me the joy of your salvation, 
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
Psalm 51:12
 

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Epistle to Hamers (4)

Dear Lora,
 
I understand your dilemma. I am also in dilemma whether to stay in my current church that holds on to this KJV only position (since I start to know some of the brothers and sisters and the bond has started to build up), or find a new church, but I am afraid of other churches which are charismatic, which is very prevailing in Malaysia.
 
It is sad to heard their strong "orthodox" view in my church not only exclude away the false teaching, but also the good teachers and their writing. Like what Frank always says, they are "throwing the baby out together with the bath water". They think that person like D. A. Carson is liberal, and today I just saw an article in church bulletin paper that the pastor chose, in which the author mainly talks about a person called William Dever who stops believing the Bible as inspired Scriptures, but in a small snippet he describes C. S. Lewis as an "unsound spiritual hero" who "bridges the evangelicalism to heresies and apostacy".
  
I understand that Lewis is not perfect and we talked before that some the things that he wrote is not 100% biblically correct. But if we ignore all his writings like Mere Christianity, the series on Narnia, the argument of Jesus as either lunatic, liar, or Lord, etc, we really miss out a lot of blessing and his wonderful spiritual insight. And the Desiring God ministry just have a conference entirely on C.S. Lewis.
 
Today in a bible study the topic is the new birth in John 3. I am sad that the elder didn't get it right on regeneration. He teaches that the way we get this new birth is acknowledge ourselves as sinners, repentance and confession (the 'sinner's prayer '). But these are the results or the outcome of the new birth rather than the new birth itself or the way to be born again. I asked and talked to the elder about it but he still hold on to his standpoint.
  
Today the regular pastor was not here. He need to preach at another church. So I haven't found a chance to talk to him regarding C. S. Lewis and the concept of new birth.
  
Maybe the time when I know where is my posting is the time I have to really decide whether to continue to stay at this church. If I need to work at other places, then it might be a good time to look for a new church. If I will be working somewhere near my home, maybe I will still look for another suitable church, if there is. I also hope that both of you will settle down in this Greentree church soon.
  
Take care. 

Kevin.

Epsitle to Hamers (3)

Dear Frank and Lora,

I attended Chong's wedding dinner on 27th and his wedding ceremony on 28th Sept. Glad to meet the brothers and sisters again.

I managed to meet with Chong and Alice, Kok Tong, Joshua and Jean, Wailup and Annie, Calvin, and Jeremy. Some didn't manage to make it due to other plans, some didn't manage to get a leave to come here. We also meet with Wailup' son, Nathan. He is now 7 months old. We have a good time together and catch up with one another. We are also very happy to see both of you again.
Chong shared his story on how he meets Jesus Christ in Russia, which reminds me how I meet with the Lord. He also told everyone how he met Alice the first time and how they eventually get married. Their marriage and their walk with the Lord can be concluded in this one verse:

My ears had heard of you 
but now my eyes have seen you. 
Job 42:5

I was surprised how this verse in the Book of Job has such an impact on them. Indeed, "the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword,  it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow, it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart." (Hebrews 4:12)

Kevin.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

多么希望那天一起走的那段路
是没有尽头
没有终点
 
好希望可以牵着你的手
敞开各自的心声
一起走完这个
天路历程
 
但现在我只能在远方
默默地守护你
希望你能找回
自己原来的颜色
 
愿主保守你的脚步
不让你再次成为迷失的羊
  
只能对你说三个字
对不起
  

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Epistle to "Timothy"

One lesson I learned from the past is that to keep a fellowship going on, the group must do something more structured. Last time when the other brothers and sisters still here, we try do something each week like someone share something, or use those Our Daily Bread.

Someone have to 'squeeze out' some idea every week, and that idea will end up very random or very boring if they didn't prepare thoroughly. In other words, we are doing something random every week, so there is no direction and the fellowship is going no where. There is nothing to anticipate. This kind of fellowship will die off very fast.

So what does it mean by something which is structured? It means that it should be like a series. As an illustration, a structured drama series will be better than random movie every week. I asked Frank last time, and this is his advice.

1.  Bible study:
  • Choose a book, eg. Ephesians, John, or something else, and study it together.
  • I do this with the chinese small group after the service few years back (when there are still many of them).
  • You don't have to go chapter by chapter. Maybe just a small portion of a Scripture every week.
  • A modulator will prepare first and leads the study. Other people should read that portion of Scripture too, so they can share something, or ask anything that they don't understand.
  • Maybe everyone or a few people can take turn to lead the study. However the preparation will be heavy and burden, and not everyone can lead (especially the new believer).

2. Listen and discuss:
  • Use some audio/video material from some websites. Listen together, then discuss.
  • I did this with the hostel fellowship every Tuesday.
  • I used the teaching series from R.C. Sproul, which is recommended by Frank. Most of them are short, and not boring.
  • Other trustworthy sites are: Desiring God, The Gospel Coalition.
  • NB!!! Remember to check the "Show free series only" box at the right upper corner, because some series need to buy.
  • Choose appropriate one, especially those shorter one, 20-30min, so that you have some time left for discussion.
  • The modulator should listen first, and anticipate for questions, and prepare some questions or task.
  • Last time I roughly browsed through the site. Here is a short list that I did last year:
Video
  1. Holiness of God - Video. 30min x 6
  2. Pleasing God - Video. 30min x 6
  3. Loved By God - Video. 20min x 11
Audio
  1. Knowing God’s Will - Audio. 20min x 5
  2. Ask R.C. 2007: Best of Listener Questions - Audio. 20min x 4
  3. Objections Answered - Audio. 20min x 8
  4. The Cross of Christ - Audio. 30min x 6
These 2 should be great, but I think the Amazing Grace series will be better in teaching reformed theology or Calvinism.
  1. What Is Reformed Theology? - Video. 20min x 12
  2. Chosen By God - Video. 30min x 6
  • I remember I did Knowing God's Will, What is the Gospel, Themes from James, The Providence of God (half way only since the semester finished).
  • I download the series in mp3 format with Internet Download Manager (IDM) and put it in my iPod Touch, and plugin a small speaker to play it. If you don't have a portable speaker, you can use the one at the church.
  • Personally I enjoy doing the book of James than others, which I prefer expository study (means according to book) rather than topical study.
  • I found it effective and less burdenful, and in such case you are using authority from outside instead of establishing your own when you are leading a bible study. Some people can disagree with you if you lead a study, but if you are using materials eg. from R.C Sproul's site, you are shifting the authority to him.
  • Our sister was there when I conducted using Sproul's material, so maybe you can ask her also.

3. Other suggestions:
  • Since Frank and Lora is back to US, maybe you can try conduct a study that Frank or Lora did before.
  • E.g. Lora's Chronological Study, Frank's Hebrew study.

Other things that you have to decide or settle:

1. The place: The best is someone's room so that you will have less disturbance, but everyone in that room should participate in the fellowship. Due to roommate's issue I didn't manage to find a room, so end up using the study hall or the assembly hall. I will send you the example of the permission letter. If you want a soft copy in word format, you need to ask from our brother. You need to ask the dean to sign and cop that letter. If you have problem getting the permission from dean, ask someone like the hostel leader or those deal with the dean frequently to help you get it.
 
2. Singing: I think singing praise and worship songs is important, but due to time issue, I didn't include singing as part of the fellowship. Another reason is that bringing music instrument and sing in the study hall might disturb other people in the opposite study hall.
 
3. Prayer: This is important and indispensable. Encourage everyone to pray, like how Frank did in the prayer meeting, but not that long.
 
4. Time: Always control the time, don't let it goes on and on until midnight. Ideally 1h 15min (30min to listen the message, 30min to discuss, 15min for prayer). However this is flexible.
 
5. Be flexible: example during exam period. I always think the fellowship should continue even during exam period, but be flexible. Either change the time if someone have an exam the next day, or just limit the fellowship to prayer. Remember that during exam time the study hall will be full, if you are planning to use the study hall.
 
6. Food: Unless it is a special fellowship dinner (eg. someone's birthday, Christmas or new year dinner), I don't think food is that necessary. The other fellowship in the hostel at Saturday evening have food very frequent (almost every week or every fortnight), and I heard it becomes a burden for some of them. Don't become a Martha in Luke 10:38-42.
 
* * *
 
I just recalled another resource mentioned by Frank called Third Millennium. I remember he tries to use this material for Koinonia in Russia and those graduated when he and Lora are back in US, but so far I didn't heard any news about it.

Very good resource, good reformed teaching, and the video is with animation (a bit like Amazing Grace). The problem is that those videos are 1 hour plus. I didn't use this material before in a fellowship. The great thing about it is that every video session comes with a study guide in word format, so you can download and print it out as many as you want.
 
What you can do is either: 1. Breakdown the video into several parts (the study guide has an outline for you to break it down into a few session), and watch only that small part every week and discuss by using the study guide, or 2. Everyone watches the video themselves, then during the fellowship just discuss by using the study guide. (But you can't guarantee everyone watch that that 1h plus video before they come for discussion, so I prefer the former alternative).
  
Feel free to ask me or Frank if you have any question. Last but not least, remember Heb. 10:24-25 and Matt. 18:20.
 

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Good Old Days?

Recently I saw some of my batch-mates wrote that they miss their life in Russia, the time when we need to pack our luggage and take the flight to Russia, the days when they can cook whatever they want to eat, the nice restaurants in town, the nice food and beverage that they can enjoy in Russia, the days when they study in oversea, the nice weathers and season.They wish to go back to the "good old days".
 
But, wait a minute, I think they forget something. They forgot the bad things and the suffering, which constitute the major part of our life and study in Russia. I deny not the things that I do miss. I miss Koinonia, Frank and Lora, the time of fellowship in hostel. But let us not forget the bad things can try to go back to the "good old days".
 
Let us not forget the difficulties that we need to go through during our flight, e.g. luggage limits, long hours of flight, long hours of transit in airport, visa, custom, passport missing, flight delayed, flight cancelled, etc.
 
Let us not forget the terrible food that we eat and the high living cost in Russia, the delicious Malaysian food and beverage that we craved day-and-night while we were in Russia, until we need to carry them all they way to Russia and cook them ourselves. Let us not forget how many years we waited for Subway and KFC to be opened in Volgograd.
 
Let us not forget the studies that we went through, outdated book written in alien language, taught by half-hearted lecturers, accessed by a corrupted subjective unfair scoring system, the hours that we sit in the alien language class.
 
Let us not forget the pride, hostility, and rudeness of the locals, the horrible crimes that they done to us, the discrimination towards the foreigners.
 
Let us not forget the terrible extreme weathers that we went through, the heavy snows and blizzard, the hard and slippery ice-skating courts, the numbers of time that we fell on our butt or back until some admitted into hospital, the numbers of layers of coats and jackets that we need to put on; the hot burning oven-like atmosphere during the summer, and attack of the locust and mosquitoes and gnats.
 
Let us not forget the expensive low class hostel that we stayed, the sudden disappearance of electrical and water supply, the theft done by the locals and the papa, the rudeness and inconsideration from the mamas and administrators, the numbers of time we need to be shifted around like a chess-piece on a chess-board.
 
Let us not forget the fear of seeing a doctor in the clinic, the fear of being admitted into the hospitals and stuck in there, the inhumane food that they serve for the patient.
  
Last but not least, let us not forget the live-action love-and-hate dramas among ourselves.
  
Something that I learned in my Ecclesiastes bible study with Frank in 26th January 2012.
  
Good Old Days = Bad Memory + Good Imagination
  
This formula might be a bit too simplified and may cause misunderstanding. It is undeniable that the past consists of good and bad things. But we tend to remember only the good things and forgot the bad things (hence the 'bad memory' part). We also tend to distort our memory and create something that we think is good (hence the 'good imagination' part). 
 
For example, after the Exodus from Egypt and while still in the wilderness, the Israelites keep complaining to Moses (and indirectly, to God). They forgot about their slavery in Egypt (bad memory); and they crave for meat, fish and other vegetables in Egypt, but it was not such way when they were in Egypt (good imagination). They want to go back to Egypt, the place where they have their "good old days".
  
So seriously, do you people still want to go back to those "good old days" in Russia?
  
____________________    

Do not say, "Why were the old days better than these?"
For it is not wise to ask such questions.
Ecclesiastes 7:10 
  

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Epistle to Hamers (2)

Dear Frank,
 
How are you and Lora? I am fine here. I just did my medical checkup which was required by government. I just finished the noun system for Greek. I am still not sure whether to continue with the verb system, or should stop for a while and resume my revision on medical stuff (it is quite hard for me to do multiple things at the same time). I also take a break from Martyn Lloyd-Jones commentary on Romans 1 (since I can't borrow that book from the library for a long time), and start reading There God Who Is There by Carson (as a "follow-up" study after the conference).
 
I went to the "Evangelistic Preaching" seminar and the "The God Who Is There" conference which were delivered by D.A. Carson. What I can say is that both are very rewarding. However it is sad to know that the organizer KVBC will be selling what they recorded in CD and DVD format without uploading them on the website. Since Joshua and Jean asked me to share we them what I have learned, I outlined the content of the seminar and I sent a copy to you too (see the attachment). I always though that expository preaching or exegesis is something like a "verbal commentary" that digs out the meaning of each word, but I am in a huge mistake. There is more in it. I guess this is the difference between sermon and sharing, preaching and testimony.
   
One lesson that I learned is that sometime I have asked questions out of a wrong motive (and I did it many times during my studies in medical school). Instead of genuinely want to learn or know something, many times I actually "ask questions just to score points or show off". Questions should be asked in the right setting.
 
I met with some unexpected people. First I met with a friend, Johanan, who studied dentistry in Volgograd and used to be in the Jesus Embassy Fellowship. Glad to meet him there.

But the more unexpected person is a sister (her name is Chiew) who used to go to the Bible-Presbyterian (BP) Church that I am attending now, She is serving as a helper in this seminar and conference, and she was quite surprised to see someone coming from Calvary-Jaya Bible-Presbyterian Church while sorting the registration slips.
  
She had attend this BP church for about 10 years, but few years ago she left this church together with a few brothers and sisters (less than 10). They are those who disagree with this KJV-only movement. No wonder everyone else in the church now doesn't seem to have any problem with this KJV-only idea, since those disagree it have left the church (or maybe other people just didn't voice it out?). She said there was a long history about this thing.
  
BP church is a separated entity from the mainstream Presbyterian churches, mainly located in Singapore, Malaysia, and some other countries in South East Asia. According to her, even the BP churches in Singapore was divided into different camps on this KJV-only issue. Sadly the churches in Singapore that support this movement have infiltrated the BP churches in Malaysia. She said "they shove down this idea into their throat forcefully".

One of the oldest elder disagree it, so he silently left the church because he doesn't want to split up the church. Initially everyone else thought that he was on working trip to Singapore. But as time passes, the truth started to surface. Chiew started to search about the history of this thing. Few of them contacted this elder and met him outside the church. Eventually these few brothers and sisters also left this church.
  
Kind of sad to hear about this story. But at the same time I am glad that I am not the only one feel the same way in this church. Chiew also mentioned that she was surprised to see someone from my church coming to this seminar because she knows that BP never support this kind of conference. For the BPs even people like Don Carson is in the liberal camp. No wonder no one in the church mention people like Carson and Piper. Even in the library I can only find the oldest edition of "Desiring God" by Piper and an old edition of "Now that's a Good Question" by R.C. Sproul.

I also understand why there is no announcement about this seminar and conference, even though my church is just across the street of the place having this seminar. I recalled the story that you mentioned to me about Carson (or someone else) came to Ocean City for a conference just across the street, and the people in your church still having meeting and practice at the same time with the conference. I guess I understand this feeling now.
  
Although small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, but if we start to build up unnecessary walls beside our eyes, our vision field is narrowed and we might miss out many blessings, which can be just "across the street".

One thing that make me quite depressed after the seminar and conference. These two months I have been trying to be active in the church, attend the service weekly, go to the bible study on Numbers, attend the Basic Bible Knowledge class (since it is the requirement to be the member of the church). I thought I have been feeding myself with spiritual food. But the fact is, after these seminar and conference, I felt that the food that I ate was very dry and lack of nutrition. Though they try to expound the book of Hebrews weekly, but the preaching doesn't make the text stings and sings, wounds and heals. If not because of the bible study with you, I will not see the flow of the whole book of Hebrews and the point that the author trying to make. Maybe the problem is because sometime other visiting pastor is preaching the text. The evening service, where they preach from Leviticus, is also quite disappointing. Example, the preacher fails to make a strong link between the Day of Atonement in Leviticus 16 with Christ atoning work. Maybe I demand too much from the preachers?
 
There is a feeling to leave this church (especially after meeting with sister Chiew, even though she have zero intention to ask me to leave), in view of the KJV-only issue which make this church very isolated from other churches, and the preaching. But as far as I know from some of the friends that I met at the seminar, other churches around this area is also didn't have strong preaching.
       
In Christ, Kevin.
  

Epistle to Hamers (1)

Dear Frank and Lora,

How are you? I am fine. Today (30th August) I met up with Joshua and Jean. We have a great time to catch up with one another and shared some of the things that happened in our life while having some dessert at a place called SS2 in my town.

Joshua came up with an idea to have a retreat among the Malaysian Koinonians in Cameron Highland, Malaysia. We would like to invite both of you over to Malaysia. We plan to have it at somewhere around the first week of September 2014, because 31st of August is the Independence Day of Malaysia, so we can apply leave easier together with the public holiday. We are still at the planning stage, so we do not have a concrete plan yet, and we haven't contact the other brothers and sisters yet. Maybe we can have a seminar or a simple study together with prayers.
  
By the way today Jean joined the small group at Joshua's hospital for the first time. They heard from a professor that D.A. Carson will be coming to my town, Petaling Jaya for a seminar and a conference from 9th to 11th September. They informed me about it. I was quite surprised that Carson is coming to my town, and before that I didn't heard any news about it. Joshua checked the exact place, price, and how to register for it.

Since I am still waiting for Ministry of Health to ask me to go for work, so I can make it. But Joshua and Jean cannot go with me to the seminar and conference, since they will be going to Philippine for a retreat from 4th to 18th September (do pray for their safety during their journey and for their retreat).

Surprisingly the place to register is at a christian bookstore called Evangel Book Centre at SS2, the place where we were eating at that time. So we just dropped by to the bookstore and I can straight away register for it. Initially the deadline for registration is 28th Aug (so I thought I will miss this seminar) but they extended it to 4th Sept.
What I can say is, God had arranged everything properly in His time. Initially Jean does not have any intention to go to that small group, since she doesn't know anyone there, and if Jean is not going, Joshua will not be going too since today he is on leave. And initially we plan to meet up together earlier but we can't.

But for some reasons, Jean joined that small group, they heard about it, and we met up today at this place called SS2, and the place to register is at SS2 too. And they have extended the deadline for registration. Everything fits together. The only thing I can say is "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." (Proverbs 16:9)



The link for the events: http://kvbc.info/
  
In Christ, Kevin.