等待

有人说等待是一种幸福，但等待却需要很多的耐心，很多的坚强，很多的勇气，很多的信心，很多的恩慈，很多的定力，很多的力量，很多的忍耐，很多的慷慨，很多的牺牲，很多的小心，很多的专心……

很多的耐心，因为等待的，可能需要很长的时间。
很多的坚强，因为等待的，可能只有自己一个人等待。
很多的勇气，因为等待的，可能不是你想要得。
很多的信心，因为等待的，可能根本不会出现。
很多的恩慈，因为等待的，可能会面对很多不义的。
很多的定力，因为等待的，可能让你不断地被试探。
很多的力量，因为等待的，可能耗尽你所有的精力。
很多的忍耐，因为等待的，可能让你常常发怒。
很多的慷慨，因为等待的，可能需要付出很多。
很多的牺牲，因为等待的，可能需要放弃一切。
很多的小心，因为等待的，可能跟别的很相似。
很多的专心，因为等待的，可能因为一个疏忽而错失。

简单而言，等待，需要很多的爱心，
因为爱完全律法，（参罗马书13：10）
因为爱永不止息。（参哥林多前书13：8）

你有足够的爱心，去等待你要等的吗？
你有足够的爱心，去等待被应许的吗？

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The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness.
He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish,
but everyone to come to repentance.
2 Peter 3:9

剪断

一寸一寸在挣扎

人生有很多挣扎
长长短短
短短长长
在抉择上
在交叉入口中
不知向左还是向右
我努力选择
努力记得

但有些抉择
是一去不返
好像剪短发
一剪就没了

因为牵肠挂念
因为不想错过
常常犹豫不决
常常藕断丝连
常常举棋不定

但是时候剪断这一切
剪断挣扎
剪断牵挂
剪断惩罚
剪断不被爱的分岔
剪断伤透我的尴尬
长长短短
短短长长
是时候剪断这些无谓

因为不想让这些
长长短短
短短长长
搞到自己寝食不安
搞到自己昼夜不分
搞到自己日夜颠倒
搞到自己思绪不定
不想再静静的
守着电话

是时候剪断这一切
无谓的长发
因为是与非
很明显的
摆在眼前

那怕是再多的牵挂
那怕是再多的不舍
那怕是再多的美丽
也应该剪断

反反覆覆
清清楚楚
一刀两断
这些无谓

带着短发
看前直往
应许之地
向前奔向
新天新地

你剪断了
你的长发吗？


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Let us throw off everything that hinders
and the sin that so easily entangles,
and let us run with perseverance
the race marked out for us.
Hebrews 12:1

Marriage

据说源于唐代的一段故事。

唐代有一个名士，名叫麦爱新，他看到自己的妻子年老色衰，便产生了嫌弃老妻，再纳新欢的想法，并写了一副上联放在案头：
荷败莲残，落叶归根成老藕。

被他的妻子看到了，妻子从对联中看到了丈夫弃老纳新的念头，于是便提笔续了一副下联：
禾黄稻熟，吹糠见米现新粮。

以 “禾稻” 对 “荷莲” ，以 “新粮” 对 “老藕” ，不仅对得十分工整贴切，新颖通俗，而且，“新粮” 与 “新娘” 谐音，饶有风趣。麦爱新读了妻子的下联，被妻子的才思敏捷和爱心所打动，便放弃了弃旧纳新的念头。

妻子见丈夫回心转意，不忘旧情，乃挥笔写道：老公十分公道。
麦爱新也挥笔写了下联：老婆一片婆心。

这个带有教育意义的故事很快被流传开来，世代传为佳话。
从此便有了“老公” 和 “老婆” 这两个词。民间也有了夫妻间互称 “老公” 和 “老婆” 的习俗。

What is actually marriage? Just an insurance for your love with your partner? Just a contract to live together with your partner? That's what the world usually think, but marriage is more than that.

For the husband is the head of the wife
as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior.
Now as the church submits to Christ,
so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her.
In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies.
He who loves his wife loves himself.
After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it,
just as Christ does the church - for we are members of his body.
Ephesians 5:23-25, 28-30

Marriage is an institute that establish by God in the beginning,
which is a profound mystery (cf. Ephesus 5:32),
that points to the relationship between Christ and His church.

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For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife,
and they will become one flesh.
Genesis 2:24

Operation Day

11 November 2010, our second operation day for Operative Surgery cycle. Our patient is a cat with postoperative hernia through the diasthesis of abdominal rectal muscle. So our operation is to repair the hernia by strengthening the anterior abdominal wall.

Preparation of surgical tools


Our nurses at the surgical tools table


The surgeons are dissecting the patient


Closing the surgical wound by with interrupted stitches

Accomplishment of the operation

Our patient during postoperative period

The surgical team with our patient and also our teacher Elena Yegeievna

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From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.
Acts 17:26

Some people describe those surgeons with very good skills as those with God's hands, but in reality they are just humans, they are just like everyone else, just a sinner before God. They don't really determine the life of the patient, they are just try to improve the patients' condition as much as possible. After all, God are the who determines the lifespan of each and everyone of us.

All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath.

Ephesians 2:3

Everyone of us, are just sinners, by our own nature, we are all objects of God's wrath. But the reason we are still living now, every second, is because of His mercy that withholding His wrath until the Judgement Day.

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
2 Peter 3:9

Have you repent of your sins and turn to the one that created and also sustained you?

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"The time has come," he said. "The kingdom of God is near.
Repent and believe the good news!"
Mark 1:15

沙滩上的足迹

那一夜 我梦见与耶稣在沙滩上同行

我的人生经历 都一幕幕地划过蓝天
那一幕 我都看见沙滩上总会有两对足印
以对属于我 以对属于耶稣
然而 我发现最近沙滩上的足印只剩下一对
我又会想起 每当我人生陷入低潮和沮丧时
沙滩上的足印总是只有一对


我十分懊恼 就质问主说：
主啊 你曾应许我 当我愿意跟随你
你总会伴我一起走过人生
为何总是在我最艰难时刻 你离开我
为何在我最需要你的时候 你远离我

主温柔地回答说：
我最亲爱的孩子啊 我爱你
我决不离开你
当你处于在苦难和考验中
你只看见一对足印 那时因为
我正背着你

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我虽然行过死荫的幽谷，
也不怕遭害，因为你与我同在,
你的杖，你的竿，都安慰我。
诗篇 23:4

没有面子书的小熊

难道一定要有面子书才记得吗？

没有要求每年都要记得，
但却没有一年的记得住，
看来就连那一天都不知。

为什么其他人的都记得，
但却不是我的呢？

为什么其他人都记得住，
但却不是你们呢？

不期望蛋糕，不期望大餐，
不期望卡片，不期望礼物，
不期望派对，不期望短讯，
不期望盛大，不期望特别，
不期望准时，不期望当天，
只期望祝福，小小的祝福。

难道一个小小的祝福，
都给不了吗？

给不了就算了，
却给我假希望，
把我捧上上摩天轮。

当知道希望不再是希望，
当知道祝福不属于我的，
就好比从摩天轮掉下来，
真是心如刀割，
心好痛，好痛。

心痛就算了，
却必须要脸带笑容，
必须要皮笑肉不笑，
必须要含泪而微笑。

好想变成一只小熊，
不会期待的小熊，
不会伤心的小熊，
不会心痛的小熊，
不会流泪的小熊，
不需要笑的小熊，

爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈，
爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸，不张狂，
不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，
不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶 ，
不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理；
凡事包容，凡事相信，
凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。
爱是永不止息。

……但我却办不到……
……心已痛到麻痹了……

主啊，
你真的能擦去一切的眼泪吗？
真的不再有死亡吗？
真的不再有悲哀、哭号、疼痛吗？

我试着勇敢一点，
成为一只勇敢的小熊，
成为一只坚强的小熊。

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我不是超人，我只是个没有面子书的小熊。

学海浮沉中的喃喃自语……

繁忙中饮用的热巧克力……


学海中浮沉的喃喃自语……

-I-

一直以为自己做的解剖学的笔记很完美，很整齐，很正确。最近当我温习回解剖学时看会自己的笔记，才发觉到，笔记缺乏很多资料，乱七八糟，漏洞百出，而且还有很多错误。一直引以为傲的东西，回首一看，原来有那么多的瑕疵。紧握的绿洲，原来却只是海市蜃楼。骄傲在败坏以先；狂心在跌倒之前。（箴言16:18）

人往往就是这样，只看到自己的优点，自己的强处，自己的厉害，自己的正义，但我们都像不洁净的人；所有的义都像污秽的衣服。我们都像叶子渐渐枯乾；我们的罪孽好像风把我们吹去。（以赛亚 64:6）

当我们发觉到自己的罪，自己的软弱，自己的无助的时候，才能看到神的大能。他对我说：“我的恩典够你用的，因为我的能力是在人的软弱上显得完美。” 所以，我更喜欢夸自己的软弱，好叫基督的能力覆庇我。（哥林多后书 12:9）
This illustration depicts two things. First the black line represents how much we aware of our own sins and weakness. The red cross represents the grace of God and the mighty of God. As we become more and more aware of our own sins and weakness, we will see how much grace we have received from God, and how His mighty arms save us from our wretched condition.

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But where sin increased, grace increased all the more.
Romans 5:20-21
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-II-

最近常常忙着读书，忙着上大课，忙着再医院做实习，忙着教会的施工。流逝在繁忙的时光中，让自己麻木了。我已经忘记了为什么要学习，到底要怎样学习。
The stone the builder rejected has become the capstone (Mark 12:10).

居然让自己忘了这么关键的一点。在繁忙的时光中我们常常会迷失方向，尤其是在这遥远的耶路撒冷。When we fail to follow God, toxic living and spiritual pollution will come like a swarm of locusts and eat our life. Lord will you repay the years that the locusts have eaten?

知识给予生命内容，智慧给予生命方向，神的真理给予智慧（摘自李建安的简明神学）。唯有在神的真理中，唯有再次会到上帝的身边，才能找回原来的颜色。世界上最遥远的距离，并不是飞鸟与鱼的距离，而是当你与神的爱隔绝了。

泡沫般黑夜即将 过去，这一次我愿相信，向前去往应许之地，下一季在下一个雨季，我会勇敢的说：“You're My God”。May Your peace guards my heart and mind, for I tend to stray away like a lost sheep during my pilgrimage.

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Dulux - adding colour to people's lives,
God - adding reason to people's live.
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最特别的是，在这遥远的耶路撒冷，不只是我迷失了，原来还有其它人也迷失了方向。不惜歌者苦，但伤知音稀。西楼望月几回圆？寻觅知音自古难。在生活的困难中，有时想找个朋友倾诉，但又有几个朋友是个明白自己的知己呢？所以当找到了真正的知己就要好好珍惜。你找到了一个和自己的心思意念一致的知己吗？

有些人会说，在人生里有一個又一個巧合和偶遇，也會有一個又一個意外和錯過，人与人的相遇是个缘分。但当我想起 《向左走 · 向右走》，我觉得人与人的相遇，不是缘分，而是神的主宰。

想正真去明白和了解一个人的心并不容易，就好比海底针一般。
There will always be a distance between people, and even between things that seem within ones' reach. And that one must walk down a long, thin and winding road before they reach one's heart. There's tons of obstacles. It's in fact like the roads in towns of old.
(from Dennou Coil)

虽然很难，虽然不容易，虽然会耗尽很多时间，虽然会耗尽很多精神，但只要一直往那条路走下去，是可以的到达路的尽头。

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向左走还是向右走，我努力选择努力记得，
不管世界有多辽阔，只要向着你走。
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In our life, many people tend to worry a lot, so do I. In my life here, there is always so many things to do, so many things to take care of, so many things to worry, so many things to solve. And sometime these worries in our life will consume our ownself, and we end up being so tired, and even exhausted.

Look at the cats on the street, they do not sow or reap or store away in barns,
and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
(my own version of Matthew 6:26 =P)

The dog should be the one wagging his tail, don't let the tail wags the dog. So in the same way, don't let the worries of life wags you.

A forest contains not only trees, but also many animals, flowers, living things, which make up the fullness of a forest. If you keep looking at the trees in the forest, you can't see the fullness of the forest, you can't see the wonder of the forest as a whole. You don't see the forest for the trees. So in the same way, our life contains not only worries and troubles, but also many wonderful things. If you keep focusing your mind on those trivial matters of worries, you will miss the many wonderful things in life, you can't see the fullness of life, the wonder of life as a whole.

But what is the most wonderful thing in our life? The most wonderful thing in our life, is to know that God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son. (John 3:16-18)

What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to
the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord,
for whose sake I have lost all things.
I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.
(Philippians 3:8)

So let's us now list out our worries, turn this worry list into a prayer list, and turn this prayer list into an action list. Don't fret about the future, or consumed by cares. Instead take all your worries, and turn them into prayers. Why we pray? Because God said,

"Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear."
(Isaiah 65:24)

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就算黑夜不会过去，就算白昼不会来临，
也将会有破晓的彩虹，因为上帝是个会行奇迹的神。
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