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Thursday, July 28, 2016

Learn from the Water

Learn from the water. 
     They are very humble.
They take the shape of the vessel that they are in. 

     They conform to the situation they are in.
Even if they lie on the floor, 

if they want to fly, 
     they can evaporate and become cloud in the sky.
If they want to be strong, 

     they can become iceberg and sink a ship.
Each of us may be a droplet of water, 

     but if we are united, we can become ocean.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Jesus of the Scars

by Edward Shillito

If we have never sought, we seek Thee now;
Thine eyes burn through the dark, our only stars;
We must have sight of thorn-pricks on Thy brow,
We must have Thee, O Jesus of the Scars.
 
The heavens frighten us; they are too calm;
In all the universe we have no place.
Our wounds are hurting us; where is the balm?
Lord Jesus, by Thy Scars, we claim Thy grace.

If, when the doors are shut, Thou drawest near,
Only reveal those hands, that side of Thine;
We know to-day what wounds are, have no fear,
Show us Thy Scars, we know the countersign.

The other gods were strong; but Thou wast weak;
They rode, but Thou didst stumble to a throne;
But to our wounds only God’s wounds can speak,
And not a god has wounds, but Thou alone.

Friday, December 20, 2013

While Advent is here...

It has been about 2 months already after I started working. It is very difficult to catch up stuff. This week I am assigned to KK3, which is a paediatric oncology ward. It was like nightmare on the first day. I have no idea what is happening in the ward. The scope of your work as house officer is different from general paediatric ward.

But thank God that a friend of mine who is also assigned with me to KK3 is very experienced. For this five days he taught me a lot of things, from basics to theory to procedure to attitude. He also shares with me a lot of his past experience when he just started to work. Definitely something worth to listen for a whole day.

Many things also happened in KK6, as many need "taggers" or "first posters" came to our ward. But I am not sure what happened,  since last week when for orientations in pathology department and national blood bank, and this week I am in KK3, so basically I am away from KK6 for about one and a half week.

How can I help them? I don't know. But the tradition of helping out the new colleagues should be continued, as I myself was once and now still in their shoes. But how?

Another worrying thing is that some senior house officers start to get annoyed but me. If medical officers don't like me, I am okay with it. But some how some house officers don't like my .... erm .... attitude? I don't know. And it means I am not a good team mate.

Another thing is this teaching thing.  Why such a late notice for me regarding this thing? But I am also at fault, for doesn't immediately approach the specialist regarding this matter. I also haven't approach my consultant and specialist who are in charge of my assessment, and I also haven't make an appointment for my NRP examination.

And all these happened during this season of Christmas, my first Christmas in Malaysia. Hmm....

Friday, October 18, 2013

Ink

One of the greatest writers, C.S. Lewis said, "Whenever you are fed up with life, start writing: ink is a great cure of all human ills." That's why I am writing this post or dairy or journal now. It is obvious that I am writing (or more correctly, typing) now, but what illness that I intend to cure with ink (or more correctly, keyboard)?
 
    
Recently I feel very depressed, or lost of direction. I found out that I have lost my interest in medicine. Maybe I should say, I found a greater interest, that is theology. Progressively I start to love to read and study theology. I start eating the Bible in big chunk daily, reading more Christian books, reading articles on DG and TGC, listening to audio podcast, watching video sermons, even to the point of studying the New Testament's original language, which is Koine Greek. Books, Internet and technology make all these possible.
 
But the sad thing is that, this new-found 'interest' develops on the expense of my interests in medicine. I am not a person that good in balancing or distributing his time. Seriously, if a person is good in time management and prioritization, he can really do many things at the same time (not really simultaneously, but together at the same pace). Sadly not only this does not happen on me, but also the fact that this new-found 'interest' doesn't really shorten the gap between my Great Creator and myself. Natalie Grant sings it well:
  
I spend my life to know, 
and I am far from close, 
to all You are, 
the greatness of our God.
(Natalie Grant, The Greatness of Our God)
 
I am always wonder this question, does God wants me to pursue a full-time ministry? But circumstances told me that I should stay on this path. Moreover, it is written, Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches. (1 Corinthians 7:17)
  
I tried praying Psalm 51:12 again and again. But it seems like my sins are keeping this distance from God. I am not sure whether my procrastination and my hobby (idolatry?) in making Gundam plastic models are the causes or the risk factors of this illness. Nevertheless, they are crippling. My procrastination behaves quite strangely. Sometime it manifests in its usual appearance: sleeping, lazy around, watching TV, surfing on Internet and social media. But sometime it manifests in a subtle way, or should I say, it masquerades itself under the mask of busyness or useful activities: swimming, jogging, reading books, learning new language.
  
The opposite of "procrastination" isn't really "work" or "do". At the end of the day, procrastination doesn't really mean you are doing nothing, but avoiding doing something that you are ought to do, by doing other works, either meaningless vain activities, or useful edifying beneficial works.
 
I realized that I am been running away from my responsibilities by doing other works, some may not be good in themselves, but some are good in themselves. Doing something that is good in itself doesn't make that act good. What make that act good, is the motive that drives us, the way we work it, the manner we perform it.

For everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected 
if it is received with thanksgiving, 
because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer. 
1 Timothy 4:4-5
 
  
*** Epilogues *** 
  
I am surprised by myself that I am writing this piece of work now. This idea inspired by many other author that I read.
 
First is C.S. Lewis, the author of Mere Christianity, The Chronicles of Narnia, The Screwtape's Letters, and so much more. In his writings, he likes to discern something correctly. It is a rule of thumb for him to describe every single detail of thing, regardless it is concrete object or an abstract idea. He can always describe things that are running in my mind, but I never able to put it orderly in words.   
In writing. Don't use adjectives which merely tell us how you want us to feel about the thing you are describing. I mean, instead of telling us a thing was "terrible," describe it so that we'll be terrified. Don't say it was "delightful"; make us say "delightful" when we've read the description. You see, all those words (horrifying, wonderful, hideous, exquisite) are only like saying to your readers, "Please will you do my job for me.”  — C.S. Lewis
Second is Kevin DeYoung, the author of The Hole in Our Holiness and Crazy Busy. He makes it clear that busyness is not the opposite of laziness. You maybe busy but still a lazy person. We seems to be so overwhelmed by so many things in life, yet we are not using our time wisely. So laziness is not being not busy, but avoiding things that you ought to do by being busy in the things that you are not ought to do.
 
Third is John Piper, the author of Desiring God, Future Grace, The Swam is Not Silent series, When I Don't Desire God. Like C.S. Lewis he like to think something correctly. At the same time he still appreciate the poetic effort to present an idea in beautiful sentences, rhyming lines, or even poem. He also connect glorifying God and the pursue of joy, so that the answer to the first question of Westminster Shorter Catechism makes more sense, more practical, and while avoiding heresies of both extremes.
  
But at the end of the day (this phrase is inherited from a GI specialist), does writing this thing going to change myself? Does this ink of writing will cure my illness? I don't know. We all know that God is the one that changes a person's heart, since He is the one that make it alive. So will God use this piece of writing to change my heart. I know not.
 
I have nothing to do with tomorrow. 
My Saviour will make that His care. 
Its grace and its faith I can't borrow. 
So why shall I borrow its care.
 
I am not sure when I will write again in this blog. Indeed at this place, many ink was spilled to cured the illness of my heart. I am not sure the busyness in my next phase of life will hinder me to continue to write. Only two things I hope. First, may this busy life make me work the best out of every hour of life that was breathed unto me from God. As the saying goes: If you want a job don't quickly, give it to a busy man. Second, when life is too overwhelming, may there a secret door of Corrigan for me to pray, to communion with God in His Word, and spill some ink at this place to cure my illness and restore my joy in God.
  
 

 
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Whenever you are fed up with life, start writing: 
ink is a great cure of all human ills.
- C.S. Lewis -  
  

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Six Resolution on Busyness

Something that I think of after seeing some blog post and interview about Crazy Busy by Kevin DeYoung.
Six resolutions in busy life:
  1. Control time on social media, blogging, Internet or the things that you addicted. Mortify them.
  2. Rhythm: Restoring the normal rhythm of  life, work and rest, worship and Sabbath.
  3. Long view: Have a long view, esp. in view of eternity.
  4. Priority: What are the things you say 'Yes' ?
  5. Posteriority : What are the things you say 'No' ?
  6. Default: What is the 'default' that you do when you have 15 minutes interval in the mist of busyness?

Monday, September 30, 2013

Restore unto me

O Lord, if You are really the God who is there,
help me to find a place in your story.
  
Come, I pray, for the out-pouring of Your Holy Spirit.
Come, I pray, and guide me in your story.
 Come, I pray, tarry not.
 
You have called me to be Your child
and to be a physician in Jerusalem,
therefore continue, I shall, to serve You
and fulfill Your Greatest Commission,
as a physician of body and soul.
 
Help me to remember the first love that I have forsaken.
Help me to remember the height from which I have fallen.
Give me a heart of repentance.
  

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Restore to me the joy of your salvation, 
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
Psalm 51:12
 

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Good Old Days?

Recently I saw some of my batch-mates wrote that they miss their life in Russia, the time when we need to pack our luggage and take the flight to Russia, the days when they can cook whatever they want to eat, the nice restaurants in town, the nice food and beverage that they can enjoy in Russia, the days when they study in oversea, the nice weathers and season.They wish to go back to the "good old days".
 
But, wait a minute, I think they forget something. They forgot the bad things and the suffering, which constitute the major part of our life and study in Russia. I deny not the things that I do miss. I miss Koinonia, Frank and Lora, the time of fellowship in hostel. But let us not forget the bad things can try to go back to the "good old days".
 
Let us not forget the difficulties that we need to go through during our flight, e.g. luggage limits, long hours of flight, long hours of transit in airport, visa, custom, passport missing, flight delayed, flight cancelled, etc.
 
Let us not forget the terrible food that we eat and the high living cost in Russia, the delicious Malaysian food and beverage that we craved day-and-night while we were in Russia, until we need to carry them all they way to Russia and cook them ourselves. Let us not forget how many years we waited for Subway and KFC to be opened in Volgograd.
 
Let us not forget the studies that we went through, outdated book written in alien language, taught by half-hearted lecturers, accessed by a corrupted subjective unfair scoring system, the hours that we sit in the alien language class.
 
Let us not forget the pride, hostility, and rudeness of the locals, the horrible crimes that they done to us, the discrimination towards the foreigners.
 
Let us not forget the terrible extreme weathers that we went through, the heavy snows and blizzard, the hard and slippery ice-skating courts, the numbers of time that we fell on our butt or back until some admitted into hospital, the numbers of layers of coats and jackets that we need to put on; the hot burning oven-like atmosphere during the summer, and attack of the locust and mosquitoes and gnats.
 
Let us not forget the expensive low class hostel that we stayed, the sudden disappearance of electrical and water supply, the theft done by the locals and the papa, the rudeness and inconsideration from the mamas and administrators, the numbers of time we need to be shifted around like a chess-piece on a chess-board.
 
Let us not forget the fear of seeing a doctor in the clinic, the fear of being admitted into the hospitals and stuck in there, the inhumane food that they serve for the patient.
  
Last but not least, let us not forget the live-action love-and-hate dramas among ourselves.
  
Something that I learned in my Ecclesiastes bible study with Frank in 26th January 2012.
  
Good Old Days = Bad Memory + Good Imagination
  
This formula might be a bit too simplified and may cause misunderstanding. It is undeniable that the past consists of good and bad things. But we tend to remember only the good things and forgot the bad things (hence the 'bad memory' part). We also tend to distort our memory and create something that we think is good (hence the 'good imagination' part). 
 
For example, after the Exodus from Egypt and while still in the wilderness, the Israelites keep complaining to Moses (and indirectly, to God). They forgot about their slavery in Egypt (bad memory); and they crave for meat, fish and other vegetables in Egypt, but it was not such way when they were in Egypt (good imagination). They want to go back to Egypt, the place where they have their "good old days".
  
So seriously, do you people still want to go back to those "good old days" in Russia?
  
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Do not say, "Why were the old days better than these?"
For it is not wise to ask such questions.
Ecclesiastes 7:10 
  

Thursday, August 22, 2013

On Reading Well: How to Read a Book?

Source: Desiring God

A Meditation on C. S. Lewis’s Experiment in Criticism, pages 100–101

Would you attain an author’s sense?
   Or only what you see?
Perhaps your sight is beautiful,
   And sees more truth than he.

Or maybe not. How would you know,
   Since you are blind to his?
You only pass the test you wrote,
   And fail the author’s quiz.

Are you content with that? Just that?
   To see and not to find,
To make a window on the world
   A mirror of your mind?

How vain, how foolish this! How small!
   Do you not live by growth?
What then? An author’s sense, or yours?
   Will not the wise say, Both!


- John Piper -

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Revival

I didn't expect a revival last semester.
Few brothers and sisters decided to come to this fellowship,
and few brothers and sisters moved back to hostel.
I never expected this fellowship in the hostel will be revived, 
after being dead for few years. 
  
I never expect a revival just a month before I leave.
As an introvert I start to talk to a complete stranger and have a meal together.
  
Brother comes to me to seek for spiritual advice,
and has a such a strong desire to learn the Word,
to contend for the faith that was once and for all delivered by the saints.
  
Strange dream comes,
and a "Daniel" interpreted this dream. 
 
Revival is neither planned, nor expected.
It comes like a wind, 
you don't know when it blows, 
from where it comes, 
or to where it goes.

 "When the Spirit works, who can let?" (John Gill)
When the Spirit blows, who can resist?
    
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The wind blows wherever it pleases. 
You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. 
So it is with everyone born of the Spirit. 
John 3:8

I will say to the north, 'Give them up!' and to the south, 'Do not hold them back.' 
Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth — 
everyone who is called by my name, 
whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.
Isaiah 43:6-7

Monday, May 27, 2013

Dreams & Visions: Preach

Today I have a nap and I have a dream. In my dream I saw the Malaysian brothers and sisters of our fellowship in the hostel are preparing for dinner in the church, and the menu is vermicelli (米线), but our church don't have kitchen and I don't know why we are eating vermicelli in the first place. I am very conscious that I am having a dream at that time. As we are getting ready to eat, I turn on the light, and the television is already turned on.

Some chinese folks started to walk in to the church, one by one, and take a chair to sit. Some are watching the television, some seems to be waiting for some event to happen. I am annoyed, because we are going to have our dinner here, and some strangers just start to walk in and disturb us. I asked them what they want, and plan to ask them to leave this place. One of them say, "Why are we watching something so boring on the television, let's watching something about hell." And I hear a sound saying to me: "Preach......"

Then a brother in reality knocked on my door to ask for some A4 paper, and I woke up from my dream. It is a dream, but is it just a dream?

Later in the night a friend, or should I say, a brother, came to me and ask me some questions, and we have a great talk. I am an introvert, and for years it is always a weakness for me to interact with other people, especially strangers or new friends. O Lord, let my in-disposition to be with people a blessing to people, help me to be like John the Baptist, a voice that calling in the desert, prepare the way for You, and make straight paths for You. Amen.

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And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. 
Your sons and daughters will prophesy, 
your old men will dream dreams, 
your young men will see visions. 
Even on my servants, both men and women, 
I will pour out my Spirit in those days.
Joel 2:28-29
  

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Agassiz and the Fish

Source: The Gospel Coalition

Agassiz and the Fish
by a Student

It was more than fifteen years ago that I entered the laboratory of Professor Agassiz*, and told him I had enrolled my name in the scientific school as a student of natural history. He asked me a few questions about my object in coming, my antecedents generally, the mode in which I afterwards proposed to use the knowledge I might acquire, and finally, whether I wished to study any special branch. To the latter I replied that while I wished to be well grounded in all departments of zoology, I purposed to devote myself specially to insects.
  
“When do you wish to begin?” he asked.
   
“Now,” I replied.
  
This seemed to please him, and with an energetic “Very well,” he reached from a shelf a huge jar of specimens in yellow alcohol.
  
“Take this fish,” he said, “and look at it; we call it a Haemulon; by and by I will ask what you have seen.”
With that he left me. . . . I was conscious of a passing feeling of disappointment, for gazing at a fish did not commend itself to an ardent entomologist. . . . .
   
In ten minutes I had seen all that could be seen in that fish, and started in search of the professor, who had, however, left the museum; and when I returned, after lingering over some of the odd animals stored in the upper apartment, my specimen was dry all over. I dashed the fluid over the fish as if to resuscitate it from a fainting-fit, and looked with anxiety for a return of a normal, sloppy appearance. This little excitement over, nothing was to be done but return to a steadfast gaze at my mute companion. Half an hour passed, an hour, another hour; the fish began to look loathsome. I turned it over and around; looked it in the face—ghastly; from behind, beneath, above, sideways, at a three-quarters view—just as ghastly. I was in despair; at an early hour, I concluded that lunch was necessary; so with infinite relief, the fish was carefully replaced in the jar, and for an hour I was free.
  
On my return, I learned that Professor Agassiz had been at the museum, but had gone and would not return for several hours. My fellow students were too busy to be disturbed by continued conversation. Slowly I drew forth that hideous fish, and with a feeling of desperation again looked at it. I might not use a magnifying glass; instruments of all kinds were interdicted. My two hands, my two eyes, and the fish; it seemed a most limited field. I pushed my fingers down its throat to see how sharp its teeth were. I began to count the scales in the different rows until I was convinced that that was nonsense. At last a happy thought struck me—I would draw the fish; and now with surprise I began to discover new features in the creature. Just then the professor returned.
  
“That is right,” said he, “a pencil is one of the best eyes. I am glad to notice, too, that you keep your specimen wet and your bottle corked.”
  
With these encouraging words he added—
“Well, what is it like?”
  
He listened attentively to my brief rehearsal of the structure of parts whose names were still unknown to me; the fringed gill-arches and movable operculum; the pores of the head, fleshly lips, and lidless eyes; the lateral line, the spinous fin, and forked tail; the compressed and arched body. When I had finished, he waited as if expecting more, and then, with an air of disappointment:
  
“You have not looked very carefully; why,” he continued, more earnestly, “you haven’t seen one of the most conspicuous features of the animal, which is as plainly before your eyes as the fish itself. Look again; look again!” And he left me to my misery.
  
I was piqued; I was mortified. Still more of that wretched fish? But now I set myself to the task with a will, and discovered one new thing after another, until I saw how just the professor’s criticism had been. The afternoon passed quickly, and when, towards its close, the professor inquired,
  
“Do you see it yet?”
  
“No,” I replied. “I am certain I do not, but I see how little I saw before.”
  
“That is next best,” said he earnestly, “but I won’t hear you now; put away your fish and go home; perhaps you will be ready with a better answer in the morning. I will examine you before you look at the fish.”
  
This was disconcerting; not only must I think of my fish all night, studying, without the object before me, what this unknown but most visible feature might be, but also, without reviewing my new discoveries, I must give an exact account of them the next day. I had a bad memory; so I walked home by Charles River in a distracted state, with my two perplexities.
  
The cordial greeting from the professor the next morning was reassuring; here was a man who seemed to be quite as anxious as I that I should see for myself what he saw.
  
“Do you perhaps mean,” I asked, “that the fish has symmetrical sides with paired organs?”
  
His thoroughly pleased, “Of course, of course!” repaid the wakeful hours of the previous night. After he had discoursed most happily and enthusiastically—as he always did—upon the importance of this point, I ventured to ask what I should do next. 
  
“Oh, look at your fish!” he said, and left me again to my own devices. In a little more than an hour he returned and heard my new catalogue.
  
“That is good, that is good!” he repeated, “but that is not all; go on.” And so for three long days, he placed that fish before my eyes, forbidding me to look at anything else, or to use any artificial aid. “Look, look, look,” was his repeated injunction.
  
This was the best entomological lesson I ever had—a lesson whose influence was extended to the details of every subsequent study; a legacy the professor has left to me, as he left it to many others, of inestimable value, which we could not buy, with which we cannot part. . . .
  
The fourth day a second fish of the same group was placed beside the first, and I was bidden to point out the resemblances and differences between the two; another and another followed, until the entire family lay before me, and a whole legion of jars covered the table and surrounding shelves; the odor had become a pleasant perfume; and even now, the sight of an old six-inch worm-eaten cork brings fragrant memories!
  
The whole group of Haemulons was thus brought into review; and whether engaged upon the dissection of the internal organs, preparation and examination of the bony framework, or the description of the various parts, Agassiz’s training in the method of observing facts in their orderly arrangement, was ever accompanied by the urgent exhortation not to be content with them.
  
“Facts are stupid things,” he would say, “until brought into connection with some general law.”
  
At the end of eight months, it was almost with reluctance that I left these friends and turned to insects; but what I gained by this outside experience has been of greater value than years of later investigation in my favorite groups.
  
*Louis Agassiz (1807-1873)
  

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

When I Don't Desire God: How to Fight for Joy in God?

Source: Solid Joy

How shall we fight for joy?
  1. Realize that authentic joy in God is a gift.
  2. Realize that joy must be fought for relentlessly.
  3. Resolve to attack all known sin in your life.
  4. Learn the secret of gutsy guilt — how to fight like a justified sinner.
  5. Realize that the battle is primarily a fight to see God for who he is.
  6. Meditate on the Word of God day and night.
  7. Pray earnestly and continually for open heart-eyes and an inclination for God.
  8. Learn to preach to yourself rather than listen to yourself.
  9. Spend time with God-saturated people who help you see God and fight the fight.
  10. Be patient in the night of God’s seeming absence.
  11. Get the rest and exercise proper diet that your body was designed by God to have.
  12. Make a proper use of God’s revelation in nature.
  13. Read great books about God and biographies of great saints.
  14. Do the hard and loving thing for the sake of others (witness and mercy).
  15. Get a global vision for the cause of Christ and pour yourself out for the unreached.
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You make known to me the path of life,
in your presence there is fullness of joy,
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. 
Psalm 16:11 (ESV)
 

Sunday, April 14, 2013

虚空的虚空

在耶路撒冷作王、大卫的儿子、传道者的言语。 
 
传道者说:
虚空的虚空,
虚空的虚空,
凡事都是虚空。 
 
人一切的劳碌,就是他在日光之下的劳碌,
有什麽益处呢? 
 
一代过去,一代又来,
地却永远长存。 
 
日头出来,日头落下,
急归所出之地。
  
风往南刮,又向北转,不住的旋转,
而且返回转行原道。
  
江河都往海里流,海却不满;
江河从何处流,仍归还何处。
   
万事令人厌烦(或作:万物满有困乏),人不能说尽。
眼看,看不饱;耳听,听不足。
    
已有的事後必再有;已行的事後必再行。
日光之下并无新事。
   
岂有一件事人能指著说这是新的?
那知,在我们以前的世代早已有了。
   
已过的世代,无人记念;
将来的世代,後来的人也不记念。
  
我传道者在耶路撒冷作过以色列的王。
  
我专心用智慧寻求、查究天下所做的一切事,
乃知神叫世人所经练的是极重的劳苦。
  
我见日光之下所做的一切事,
都是虚空,都是捕风。
  
弯曲的,不能变直;
缺少的,不能足数。
  
我心里议论说:我得了大智慧,胜过我以前在耶路撒冷的众人,
而且我心中多经历智慧和知识的事。
   
我又专心察明智慧、狂妄,和愚昧,
乃知这也是捕风。
     
 因为多有智慧,就多有愁烦;
加增知识的,就加增忧伤。
  
传道书 第一章
    

Thursday, April 4, 2013

How Can I Be Sure I’m a Christian? (Don Whitney)

Source: Andy Naselli's Thoughts on Theology

Extended outline of a book by Don Whitney: How Can I Be Sure I’m a Christian?

Chapter 1. Assurance of Salvation–Is It Possible?

  • It is possible, indeed normal, for the Christian to experience assurance of salvation.
  • It is possible, indeed normal, for a non-Christian to have a false assurance of salvation.

Chapter 2. Having Doubts about Your Salvation

It is possible, indeed normal, for Christians to have occasional doubts about their salvation.
  • Doubting assurance is not unbelief.
  • The causes of doubt are many.
    • Spiritual immaturity may contribute to doubts about assurance.
    • Sensitivity to sin may cause confusion about assurance.
    • Comparison with other Christians may cloud assurance.
    • Childhood conversion affects the assurance of some.

Chapter 3. The Basis of Assurance

The assurance of salvation rests primarily on the character of God, the works of Jesus Christ, and the truth of God’s promises.

Chapter 4. An Inner Confirmation

  • Assurance may be experienced partly through the inner confirmation of the Holy Spirit.
  • How does the Holy Spirit give Christians this assurance?
    • He opens our minds to understand the Bible in ways that give us assurance.
    • He guides our thinking about the biblical marks of salvation in our lives.
    • He brings Scripture and its truths to our minds in various ways that assure us.
    • He causes an inner sense of assurance without words.

Chapter 5. Signs of Eternal Life

Assurance may be experienced partly through the presence of the attitudes and actions the Bible says will accompany salvation [1 John].
  • Do you share the intimacies of the Christian life with other believers?
  • Do you have a deep awareness of your sin against the word and love of God?
  • Do you live in conscious obedience to the word of God?
  • Do you despise the world and its ways?
  • Do you long for the return of Jesus Christ and to be made like him?
  • Do you habitually do what is right more and sin less?
  • Do you love other Christians sacrificially and want to be with them?
  • Do you discern the presence of the Holy Spirit within you?
  • Do you enjoy listening to the doctrines the apostles of Jesus taught?
  • Do you believe what the Bible teaches about Jesus Christ?

Chapter 6. A Spiritual Mind-set

  • Only those who are spiritually minded are Christians.
  • You are spiritually minded when you think about the things of God spontaneously and without external causes.
  • You are spiritually minded when you think about the things of God more than anything else.
  • You are spiritually minded when you think about the things of God with more delight and enjoyment than anything else.
  • You are not spiritually minded if “God is not in all [your] thoughts.”

Chapter 7. Things That Erode Our Assurance

A true Christian may lose a sense of assurance of salvation because . . .

Chapter 8. Common Problems with Uncertainty

  • Those converted as children may experience special difficulties with assurance.
    • Those who remember little else besides following Christ sometimes have doubts that those with adult or dramatic conversions do not.
    • Concrete childhood thinking differs from more abstract adult thinking.
    • An awareness of the Lordship of Christ must expand to cover all the ever-expanding circle of life that comes with maturity.
  • Stay-at-home mothers of young children may experience special difficulties with assurance.
  • True assurance won’t lead to spiritual carelessness.
  • Those worried about the unforgivable sin have not committed it.

Chapter 9. False Assurance of Salvation

  • Sources of a false assurance of salvation
    • A public commitment or outward response to the gospel
    • Baptism
    • Involvement with church
    • A strong Christian family heritage
    • An abundance of good deeds
    • An extraordinary experience
    • A dramatic personal or lifestyle change
    • Material blessing and financial security
    • A false understanding of God
    • A false understanding of sin and hell
  • Characteristics of the falsely assured
    • They are either unconcerned or angry when warned about false assurance.
    • They are either legalistic or loose with spiritual disciplines and duties.
    • They are either very weak in or very confident of their Bible knowledge.
    • They have either a vicarious Christianity or an overly independent spirit.
    • They may be constantly resisting the truth or never able to come to the truth.

Chapter 10. What to Do If You’re Still Not Sure

  • Don’t take for granted that you understand the gospel.
  • Think deeply about the gospel.
  • Repent of all known sin.
  • Submit everything to the Lordship of Christ.
  • Meditate much on 1 John.
  • Don’t doubt the promises of God.
  • Believe as best you can and pray for greater faith.
  • Practice the spiritual disciplines.
  • If you really love God, take assurance because non-Christians don’t love God passionately.
  • If you hate your sin, take assurance because non-Christians don’t hate sin deeply.
  • If you’ve never been baptized, present yourself as a candidate in obedience to Christ.
  • Don’t neglect the Lord’s Supper.
  • Don’t compare earthly fathers to your Heavenly Father.
  • Seek godly counsel if the doubts persist.
  • Pray for assurance.
  • Wait patiently upon God to give you a fuller experience of assurance.
   
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Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith, test yourselves.
Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you — 
unless, of course, you fail the test? 
2 Corinthians 13:5